Okay MamaJD...here goes.
Some days are just better than others. I think having 'Flower' in the kitchen at 2 AM was one of those days that was better. I was sound asleep when I heard a scraping noise coming from the kitchen. I had accidentally left the kitchen door to the garage open just enough to encourage a night time raid from my puppies' playmate. Fortunately, Chewy stayed asleep under our bed. Duke was sleeping soundly along with the 2 house cats. It was up to Chico and I to encourage our 'Flower' to head back out to the big barn and get some sleep. Fortunately, Flower left under very pleasant terms. Her tail remained in the down position the whole time she was in the house. Perhaps finding a new home for her is high on the list of things to do.
I think this might have been a pre-cursor of things to come.
Shortly after this I was admitted to KMC with chest pains. I just thought it might be time for another stent. I had one put in 4 years ago and things have been well since. Imagine my surprise when they took a chest xray and discovered that perhaps I had lung cancer. WOW, did I receive excellent care at KMC? I now have my own male nurse that likes to tie me up and one that says he is going to keep me in bed. Ladies, they are cuties and I'm here to tell you that it doesn't get any better than that. They certainly kept my mind off of the immediate future. In the nurses defense, they were superb and totally above board. We just happened to hit a couple of moments in time where humor seemed to be the best medicine. If they read this, they will know who they are, and I want to thank them again for all the kindness that I was shown. That goes for the women nurses also on the 3rd floor. Thank You from the bottom of my heart.
After more tests and a biopsy, it has been confirmed that I have adenocarcinoma. What a trip. So life is coming full circle and I am truly blessed. There has never been a time in my life that I have felt so loved as I do right now. I have such a wonderful family and great friends and a loving God, that there is no way any of this can go wrong. It doesn't matter what happens.
It seems to me that we get so few chances to have a moment of clarity and this is one of those moments for me. I learned a long time ago that life is truly what we make of it and I certainly know that I can open up a lemonade stand with this one. The only thing I want to do is walk through the future tests, the chemo and whatever comes down this road with grace and dignity. Humor is my way of dealing with it right now and that feels pretty darn good. Skunks or no skunks, good news or not...life is what it is and it RIGHT now.
It has certainly helped me to write and I am grateful I have a place to do that. Thanks MammaJD.
