Saturday, January 17, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
My Mind Is a Dangerous Thing! Going There Alone...
Some days are just for daydreaming. You know how it is...you stare out the window without really looking at anything. There is nothing out there that is really moving, not even a bird. Even if there was by the time a few seconds or maybe a minute has passed you are so entranced that you are barely aware of the movement. Because you feel safe and secure you aren't alarmed by anything stirring. And then I realize...I am in my mind. Alone. Again!
At that moment the trouble truly begins. I see problems that aren't there, solutions to such problems, and even see the results of solving such problems...then the fun really hits the fan so to speak. Well, if I can resolve or solve this problem, then it should be no problem to solve that one and the next thing you know I have all the answers for family and friends. No one that I love has cancer, no one I know is poor, no one I know is struggling with any spiritual, mental or other physical problems. Life is easy for all of them and they haven't a care in the world. All because "I" have decided what is the best for them. "I" have decided what "I" think they need or want, "I" decide how they should act and love and be. "I" decide where they should or shouldn't go, what they should or shouldn't do. Awww...the world is now a beautiful place. Wrong.
Instantly, the recollection of my daughter being short with me, or I picture that my husband should have hurried a little faster than what he said he would. I am flooded with mental images of everyone shouting and pulling at me. They all want a piece of me. I am running down this very dark alley heading --I have no idea where. What do I do? It would hurt to scream. They are all in the wrong. I must make them see it. It's 'their' fault. 'They' just don't understand that I know what's best for them. If only they would see it my way.
Then the Duke is asking me what I see out the window. 'Oh, uh, nothing. Just looking.' I reply. "Isn't it a beautiful day out?" I query. "Sure," he says, "if you like frozen rain and gray skies."
Another day has started and I thank God for not letting me be in charge. I thank Him for all the blessings that I do have, and most of all I thank Him for my faith, hope and love. Sometimes I even have charity, forgiveness, and happiness.
It truly is a beautiful day.
At that moment the trouble truly begins. I see problems that aren't there, solutions to such problems, and even see the results of solving such problems...then the fun really hits the fan so to speak. Well, if I can resolve or solve this problem, then it should be no problem to solve that one and the next thing you know I have all the answers for family and friends. No one that I love has cancer, no one I know is poor, no one I know is struggling with any spiritual, mental or other physical problems. Life is easy for all of them and they haven't a care in the world. All because "I" have decided what is the best for them. "I" have decided what "I" think they need or want, "I" decide how they should act and love and be. "I" decide where they should or shouldn't go, what they should or shouldn't do. Awww...the world is now a beautiful place. Wrong.
Instantly, the recollection of my daughter being short with me, or I picture that my husband should have hurried a little faster than what he said he would. I am flooded with mental images of everyone shouting and pulling at me. They all want a piece of me. I am running down this very dark alley heading --I have no idea where. What do I do? It would hurt to scream. They are all in the wrong. I must make them see it. It's 'their' fault. 'They' just don't understand that I know what's best for them. If only they would see it my way.
Then the Duke is asking me what I see out the window. 'Oh, uh, nothing. Just looking.' I reply. "Isn't it a beautiful day out?" I query. "Sure," he says, "if you like frozen rain and gray skies."
Another day has started and I thank God for not letting me be in charge. I thank Him for all the blessings that I do have, and most of all I thank Him for my faith, hope and love. Sometimes I even have charity, forgiveness, and happiness.
It truly is a beautiful day.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
I'm Never Too Old To Learn
Whew...I have spent a lot of time learning about mySpace and blogging and modules and colors and arranging and.............
All for just a wee bit of progress. But progress it is. My first born daughter mentioned that she has been on a couple of these sites for years and is still learning. My second born just joined the foray and alotta atta girls are going around (no Brunk intended). No. 1 and No. need to aquire more adjectives to refer to one another I think. After all, they ARE Ladies. Beautiful ones at that. Sisters will be sisters I guess, but it's nice they are getting older and will mellow with such wonderful aging.
Snow is still snowing and supposedly there is a break in sight. Although we may float away if it starts flooding. We surely have ticked God off. Then again, we have been in a drought and need the water and it must be cooling the planet. Oh, well, outside issues that I don't know much about really. Just an observation.
Can anyone explain to me why the didn't shovel the school roofs, etc. while all the kids were out of school? Do they save money or spend more with the doors close? I remember walking to school through all this type of weather in Spokane as a kid. Course my grandmother walked 10 miles to school each day and it was up hill in both directions.
Tomorrow (or later) I need to discuss dog collars. That should be great fun. I probably have some observations on that subject also.
All for just a wee bit of progress. But progress it is. My first born daughter mentioned that she has been on a couple of these sites for years and is still learning. My second born just joined the foray and alotta atta girls are going around (no Brunk intended). No. 1 and No. need to aquire more adjectives to refer to one another I think. After all, they ARE Ladies. Beautiful ones at that. Sisters will be sisters I guess, but it's nice they are getting older and will mellow with such wonderful aging.
Snow is still snowing and supposedly there is a break in sight. Although we may float away if it starts flooding. We surely have ticked God off. Then again, we have been in a drought and need the water and it must be cooling the planet. Oh, well, outside issues that I don't know much about really. Just an observation.
Can anyone explain to me why the didn't shovel the school roofs, etc. while all the kids were out of school? Do they save money or spend more with the doors close? I remember walking to school through all this type of weather in Spokane as a kid. Course my grandmother walked 10 miles to school each day and it was up hill in both directions.
Tomorrow (or later) I need to discuss dog collars. That should be great fun. I probably have some observations on that subject also.
Saturday, January 3, 2009
WOW! The More U Use It--The Easier It Gets
I think I am almost getting the hang of this. Now I have 2 blogs going...I hope. Hey, MamaJD what do you say? It's pretty cool for an old broad, huh? My daughter is proud...Hope she checks this one out also.
Sent out my first New Year's Letter since I didn't send many cards this year. The Duke and I had a hard time tossing the coin to see which one we'd use. Then it was late when they arrived and also we were remodeling the kitchen and his bathroom. So we got behind and then it was oh, never mind.
That's one of my favorite phrases. It says so much and so little that you can never tell which way I mean it. Heck, most of the time, I don't know either.
It would be a good day for the Polar Bear Plunge. Everyone would have to stay in the water today. Dang, it's cold. Give me Costa Rica or Kauai right now.
The Duke says it's our turn to win the lottery so we can buy a 'little' place in Kauai. Now his idea of 'little' is just that--teeny-tiny. My idea of little is to have enough room to have everyone for Christmas and New Year's. Stayed tuned on the results of that.
Here's hoping the Canadian side of the family is keeping some sort of warm. I personally don't understand the term -33 Degrees C. I always was a bit slow in Math. Oh, spring can't be too far away.
Sent out my first New Year's Letter since I didn't send many cards this year. The Duke and I had a hard time tossing the coin to see which one we'd use. Then it was late when they arrived and also we were remodeling the kitchen and his bathroom. So we got behind and then it was oh, never mind.
That's one of my favorite phrases. It says so much and so little that you can never tell which way I mean it. Heck, most of the time, I don't know either.
It would be a good day for the Polar Bear Plunge. Everyone would have to stay in the water today. Dang, it's cold. Give me Costa Rica or Kauai right now.
The Duke says it's our turn to win the lottery so we can buy a 'little' place in Kauai. Now his idea of 'little' is just that--teeny-tiny. My idea of little is to have enough room to have everyone for Christmas and New Year's. Stayed tuned on the results of that.
Here's hoping the Canadian side of the family is keeping some sort of warm. I personally don't understand the term -33 Degrees C. I always was a bit slow in Math. Oh, spring can't be too far away.
Friday, January 2, 2009
That was a long Break!
Of course, that's an understatement. The surgery was almost a nightmare. They could not find the kidney stone and really didn't do any surgery. However, I had a terrible time recovering from the medication. My cancer grew and then we tried another chemo and it shrunk some again. As of today I am still considered stable. Never thought anyone would say that about me!
Life is still great and loving it.
Stay tuned.
Life is still great and loving it.
Stay tuned.
Monday, October 29, 2007
Mondays
Wouldn't you love to have a nickel for every time you have said or heard a statement about Mondays? You know the comments...Monday mornings are tough, I hate Mondays, everything is so hectic on Monday. I think most of us would have a nice savings account if we just had put that nickel aside. The thing about Monday today takes me back to when I read a book named "Wheels" I think (please don't quote me). It was a story about automobile manufactures' and when the best time to order a car. According to the story the best time was to have them build your car on a Wednesday because they weren't hung over from the weekend, it wasn't hump day until they got off work so the workers were still feeling pretty good. Also, they weren't all excited and sidetracked about what they were going to do for the weekend. I feel the same way about surgery on Mondays. I worry that the Dr. may have had a bad weekend, his wife ticked him off, or he just doesn't want to come to work because it's Monday. And here I am in pain from a kidney stone and have no choice but to do it today.
Thank God I believe that He guides the hands that will do the work and keep me safe. He hasn't brought me this far just to drop me now.
Guest were flowing in and out of the house all weekend and the Duke is keeping busy just looking for diet Chocolate Soda. He did get all the leaves up that were on the grass and the yard one more time looks good. That Chewy dog has given it a rough go this summer. We have our new Cliff Harris/Randy Mann calendar in place and life is good.
Even if it is a Monday and I'm on my way to the sand and gravel pit....oh, Joy!
Thank God I believe that He guides the hands that will do the work and keep me safe. He hasn't brought me this far just to drop me now.
Guest were flowing in and out of the house all weekend and the Duke is keeping busy just looking for diet Chocolate Soda. He did get all the leaves up that were on the grass and the yard one more time looks good. That Chewy dog has given it a rough go this summer. We have our new Cliff Harris/Randy Mann calendar in place and life is good.
Even if it is a Monday and I'm on my way to the sand and gravel pit....oh, Joy!
Friday, October 26, 2007
What A Difference A Day Makes
Well, I guess all the laughter, tears, prayers and good wishes are working for now. The good news is that the tumors have shrunk to about 50% of their original size. The Duke and I are happy about it in different ways.
His comes from the fact that I will be around longer, mine is from the fact that I now get to remodel the kitchen because I'll be cooking in it for a while longer. Some times you just have to negotiate for the right things. You see, I am truly ready whenever the Good Lord thinks it's my time. No worries there. In the mean time, I have some things to do that are important to me and probably me alone. One of the most important is trying to mend a relationship with my oldest daughter. I'm not sure I will ever see that happen, but let's face it, prayer works.
Another is to travel. When the Duke and I were honeymooning in Yellowstone we bought one of the Passbooks to the National Parks. I'm looking to fill it up if we can. Anyone have a great motor home they are looking to see go somewhere else? That's the next plan after the holidays.
This is the second time I have learned that I really do get to live my life one day at a time, and I really am blessed that I get it. Plan the plan and not the results they say.
Well, the Duke is doing dinner tonight. What a great life, I have 2 men cooking for me. How lucky can one lady get.
Keep Laughing....
His comes from the fact that I will be around longer, mine is from the fact that I now get to remodel the kitchen because I'll be cooking in it for a while longer. Some times you just have to negotiate for the right things. You see, I am truly ready whenever the Good Lord thinks it's my time. No worries there. In the mean time, I have some things to do that are important to me and probably me alone. One of the most important is trying to mend a relationship with my oldest daughter. I'm not sure I will ever see that happen, but let's face it, prayer works.
Another is to travel. When the Duke and I were honeymooning in Yellowstone we bought one of the Passbooks to the National Parks. I'm looking to fill it up if we can. Anyone have a great motor home they are looking to see go somewhere else? That's the next plan after the holidays.
This is the second time I have learned that I really do get to live my life one day at a time, and I really am blessed that I get it. Plan the plan and not the results they say.
Well, the Duke is doing dinner tonight. What a great life, I have 2 men cooking for me. How lucky can one lady get.
Keep Laughing....
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